I am a self-proclaimed knowledge seeker. I love learning. Last year, I read 82 books, participated in 10 courses, and received 5 certifications. I don’t say this to brag… far from it. I say this to give you a context for my current paradigm. Now with all those books, courses and certifications, you’d think that I would be rolling in the dough… and yet, I’m not. I live an extremely abundant life, and my external conditions 100% reflect my internal condition… my limiting beliefs, my strengths, my awarenesses and those things that lie under the surface.
I am at times a self-help junkie… looking for the guru that is going to show me the magic steps, the easy path, the ever illusive millions. I love spending time with my kids and I adore being a stay-home mom. I enjoy the freedoms that this lifestyle give me and I like the security of where I am… and, I’d like to have more. I would like to travel with my kids, I’d love to have more adventures, a newer car, a bigger kitchen, healthier food to eat, I mean, who wouldn’t? So… I have been on a quest to change my mind so I could somehow be worthy for this “abundant” life. And, so far other than a change in paradigm, not a lot of physical changes have been apparent. Let’s explore why this is the case.
Let’s rewind the calendar 11 years. In a story I referenced in my EFT article, I was in a stuck place and knew that life needed to change. I had been a shelf-help junkie with books galore sitting on my shelves, programs I had never opened, and I felt a nudge to start doing something. I saw the movie The Secret and it ignited a curiosity in me. I started to see the possibilities of what life could bring. Incidentally, for me at least, The Secret introduced a brand new phenomenon… the Guru.
Many of these “gurus” had been around in their own right for years, but The Secret introduced them to a much broader audience. All those people who wanted to live the secret wanted to know what these experts had to say, and this movie provided a way for the experts to make their own millions teaching people the secrets and the laws of he universe.
Now, lest you misunderstand, there are laws of the universe, and there is a secret to living the life of your dreams, but, and this is a big but, the guru can’t do it for you. He has done it. He has lived it. He has aligned himself with the life he wants to live and he takes inspired action. That truly is the secret.
It’s not only about visualizing what you want. That’s important. How can you recognize the blessings and the fruits of your intentions if you don’t even know what those fruits might be? It’s not enough to go out and do what the guy who has what you want does. You must get yourself in a receiving state and then you must take inspired action.
in 2007, I started taking action. As a result, I manifested amazing abundance… as much as I could handle at that time. And then I decided the trade off wasn’t worth it. I had a mindset that I c0uldn’t have money and free time. I had to work hard to enjoy the kind of money I was making. And boy did I ever.
In 2012, my daughter KaiteLynneRose Sunshine graced our lives for 4 days. It was a daunting experience and one I wouldn’t trade for anything. I learned so much about myself through that experience, and I decided that being a mom was so much more important than the money so I quit my job. We had finally been awarded my husband’s disability and pension and “the sacrifices we would need to make for me to devote my time to the kids was worth it.”
So, true to the perfect order of the Law of Attraction, I got the sacrifices… I didn’t allow myself to be in that place where I could both have the money and the time. I didn’t even know how to attain that vibration. And I picked up odd jobs here and there where I was able to earn the extra money necessary. God always provided and we always had “just enough”.
Fast forward to 2017. A few things changed and I got a call to get out of my comfort zone and to step into my power. It started with a call to move from Las Vegas, my home for 41 years to Idaho, not even on my radar for possibilities. And then as I shook up my world, the call to finally stop playing small, to share all this knowledge I have acquired became a call I could no longer ignore.
I have lived The Secret. I have gotten as high as I would let myself go. And now, I can see the possibilities and I am excited to let my light shine and honor my divine purpose.